Dissappear

"Lately, the feeling of wanting to disappear chases me and it runs in circles inside my head. It does not leave. The thoughts of leaving and forgetting of the things that once were and now they have faded away. I just want to get away and perhaps recover. But this idea is close to me when I close my eyes. However when I open them the reality hits and it is impossible for it to ever come true. The lack of motivation, leaves me empty. Each new day is a new beginning they say, but for me its just another day to fight for something that I don’t even know of. The only time I feel at peace is when I sleep. But once the noise of a new day, it fills up my mind with the feeling of wanting to disappear. I have tried to fight this feeling but there is only so much I can do. Come April, I want to get up and start over. I have some hope, but not much. All I want is to feel the breeze of spring and think that everything will be okay."