It's hard to convey what positive words from loved ones mean to me in my moments of utter confusion, despair, and otherworldly emotion. My passion for life, words, people, connections, and hearts runs deep. Lately, it all seems shallow, wobbly, and contorted. It's offensive how anyone can feel so empty while surrounded by so much greatness in their present and in their past. None of it makes sense to me. NONE. It makes me want to beat myself up for feeling anything other than utter joy. However, emotions run deeper than most can comprehend. No matter how much money, love, or accomplishment we endure, it seems too god damn easy to find misery, hurt, and doubt within ourselves. It doesn't happen all the time but life undulates as such. Like driftwood rolling upon the waves of the sea, we are granted the great gift of pain and joy in alternating states thru that which is the astounding journey of life.
I get the same feeling from time to time. Sometimes I sit in despair and feeling lonely but then I am reminded about all the people in my life who care about me. Yes I don't see them all the time but there are plenty of people whom I can call on if I need them for whatever reason.
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http://www.joshuabanker.com/2011/02/enjoy-life.html
Thankfulness is a state of mind that requires cultivation, my dear. Auntie Lo says shut down the electronics and write down 10 things you are thankful for, beginning with friends who love you no matter what.
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ReplyDelete@Lo - I can write anything down without my laptop ;)
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